Frazzled

All this mess is done with and now... I am left to get my family back on track. Routines... normal emotions, kids things. Brandon's sensei has told me he is ready to test for his Yellow belt. I just have to make sure he gets there to class. Hopefully life will be more calm so I can get there.

Having this time with family in such a dire situation really puts things into perspective. That perspective being... you'll love them but they will drive you crazy.

We'll start with my brother... I never thought someone's ideals and manner of going about life would confuse me so much. First, there's the way he approaches his wife, the fact she's in a coma and his new "fiancee", yes there is a ring already. He lives life without a care, she is already dead in his eyes and there is no sign of remourse or even mourning. When the fact is, she seems to be slowly improving. He has already written her off as no problem of his even though there have been no papers filed as of yet. Then, there was his peculiar behavior about my grandmother's belongings. Going through things and jumping at the chance to give something to his new girl. Who, by the way probably didn't even know my Grandma's name. He seemed totally detached from any emotion other than neediness towards his fiancee.

At home, I was screaming for some privacy. I just wanted to be on the phone or on the computer doing my own thing without someone right there looking and watching and asking about it.

Granted, I loved spending time with them. I just wish there is a happy medium hehe.

Now, I am at a loss as to where to start this new less stressfull routine to life. Today has been pretty quiet and nice!