Many wonders

Here I am.. sitting in the morning, the only one awake. It's overcast, foggy and cool outside, I have my coffee and it's perfect. The kids have a day off so we're going to plan to spend it together. My life is about to take a far more productive road of individuality. Split from where my children were my career to something separate. Don't get me wrong.. they always come first but it does feel nice to have a direction all my own. They are getting older too where they want to be surrounded by their friends and less mommy. I know I will miss them immensely while I am working but that just means we get to do more fun stuff together when I am off!

Birthday

I had a very busy weekend. My friends spoil me. Here I am, at a turning point in my life.. the last year of my twenties and I'm stuffed full with wich roads to take. Never have I faced so many forks in the road. Never have I had to choose wich dirt path to take so closely. Seriously, all my life... I just hopped on the trolley that took me where I was going. This year will be crucial to me, such a learning point in life. I'll make it the best I can! I'll pave the roads I decide to take and appreciate the speed bumps and heed the warning signs and speed limits. Goodbye birthday... hello life. :)

Solitude

This looks mighty fine right about now. Me, a chair and miles of ocean.

My mind woke up this morning energized. I opened my eyes and the clock said 4 A.M. 4 AM!!!! Go back to sleep! Back to sleep! I laid there with my eyes closed for a good hour and a half. My mind unwilling to settle down and my eyes screaming for more rest. I gave up the battle and made some coffee and sat at the computer.

My quick glance at the Yahoo news page didn't spark too many synapses in my awareness. I did however learn that Denmark is the happiest country according to a survey that began in 1981. The U.S. is the 16th. In general, the survey says the world is getting happier. I don't see how this possibly is.... although, I only see in terms of this country. Unless the world is just a bunch of liars and I like to think that is not true.

I am still the only one awake in this house. It's kind of nice actually. Even the cat is still peacefully in his slumber.

Gas prices went back up 10 cents a gallon. Hmmm conveniently around a holiday!! These convenient hikes don't convince me of a shortage. Nope, I'm not convinced! :)

Nothing new to report for the 4th weekend. Just go with the flow is the plan.

Hope everyone's day is fantastic!!!

Adrift upon life's waters

We are faced with so many choices in life. What kind of dog food to buy? The red or purple shirt? Between the kind words and the harsh. We only have this one life and we need to make sure those choices lead us to the person we want to be in that life. Uncertainty doesn't seem to have a place but it does and it is essential to boot. Without questioning those choices and the ripples that those choices bring to your life you can not be positive of the outcome. You must have a period of uncertainty before the certainty hits. I believe it's each of our duties to live our lives to the fullest we possibly can, to achieve the ultimate potential within us for whatever we excell at or wish to accomplish. When we are strong as our own person... we are collectively strong as a society. We can choose to drift aimlessly on a raft on life's waters... or we can let the ripples of our choices steer us to our goals.

Just a thought for the evening.

The dissolution of fears

Sometimes, we can face our fears head on... muster up the strength within us and just leap into that pool of fear and overcome them. Yet, there are even more times when that extra hand to hold is what does the trick. The gradual process of getting your feet wet with the support of someone who loves you. That's what really does it for the most part. It helps to know that we are not alone and that our fears aren't anything unusual. Once we get over them we can enjoy the waters of life to the fullest.

Urban Dictionary Me

Sooo my friend miss anarchy Annie gave me this idea... I went into Urban Dictionary. com and entered my name.. this is what I got haha. personally like #2.


1.
hollie
love it 62 up, 27 down hate it

A very handsome woman otherwise known as a clydesdale
Damn look at that hott girl she's a hollie
hollie marlow hottie handsom clydesdale
by oregano Jan 22, 2006 email it 0 comments


2.
hollie
love it 26 up, 2 down hate it

an extremely beautiful girl, who is wanted by all. she is stunning and friendly.

wow, that girls a real hollie! you got a good one there!
hollie holly stunner beautiful friendly
by MarcusMayhem Mar 23, 2008 email it 0 comments


3.
Hollie
love it 20 up, 28 down hate it

An ollie when your back foot is on the ground and you jet your front foot out and bring back and hop back on your skateboard
DO A HOLLIE GUY! I did a hollie and i showed him up!
hollie ollie skateboard crazy wow
by Garrett Cook Jul 5, 2006 email it 0 comments

A clock in a hospital

I was in the hospital emergency room for a good portion of today. Another kidney stone. Apparently, once you have one... the chance of getting recurring stones is extremely great. I barely had to wait in the waiting room and everyone was very nice. Although, while I was laying in that bed hurting... I couldn't help but look at the clock. It was a very basic clock much like this one but not as fancy. I noticed a couple things..... the second hand looked just like an oversized red coffee stirrer and it hiccuped on the 6 at the 30 second point for exactly one second... so in reality.. time skipped a beat or gained an extra pulse. As I was getting sleepy from the nausea medicine I couldn't take my eyes off the black and white contrast of numbers and dots. I followed the bright red hand around the clock face until I was probably blue. In fact, my toes were blue from being chilly. Then a nice nurse gave me a heated blanket and I wanted to hug her. hehehe. I am home now and mobile for the most part... just waiting for it to pass.... or maybe it already has. Pesky time again...