In the night sky...

Driving by myself on the road I lovingly call "the dead road" because the whole length is filled with cell phone dead spots and I always lose people on it. It was dark and late and I was on my way to get the kids at daycare. Alone with my thoughts... thoughts that made me smile and worry at the same time. Listening to whatever was on the radio. At the exact moment I had a particular thought, in total view of me and the cows along the side of the road, I saw my first ever shooting star. It was big, it flew for a good distance then poof with an ember fire of dissintegartion it was gone. I knew I was supposed to do something at that time. Oh yah. WISH! Hollie make a wish! I scrambled in my brain for something I wanted.. ironically it was the same thought I was having when I saw it. So, I just kept going on that silent train of thought all the way to the daycare but this time with a smile and a solid amount of ease and wonder.


I've seen scheduled meteor showers before.. on the mountainside of California... but for those, I was prepared. This totally caught me off guard and it seemed at the perfect time. It was beautiful.


Of course, I don't know what it means... if anything. But I'll like to believe it means everything will be alright... not to worry so much. Life will work itself out through the pains and frustrations and the happy heartfilled moments that put that smile on our face when we're alone are the things that make our wishes come true.

Twirling lady

Where were your hopes and dreams? As a child... where did you keep them? Did you allow the prima ballerina to dance among them at night on top of your dresser in that box? Did you keep them safe with the trucks and dinosaurs at the foot of your bed? Wherever you kept them... are they still preserved?

Recently, within this year. I have had a whirlwind of events. I have had smiles and definate tears. I have had the happiness of my children's touch and the fear of my life being gone... at the blink of an eye.. I've had the test of friendships and the reality of love and war. My heart had been so full of positive and solid contentment and promise.... and crushed. At this point... I have searched so much to find the road in wich I should travel. I've reasoned... I've pleaded... I've nearly sold my soul to find the comfort. Me, the girl who can reason anything out for the positive. Why can I not understand?

Then, I thought about what is important. What is really and truly important. Is it the routines and habits you get accustomed to? Is it what you can afford this year over last? Where are those old hopes and dreams. It's not the complicated desires that should be focused on. Open that box and let the music play... let the little lady twirl with reckless abandon. Remember those simple hopes of innocent smiles and what is in front of you doesn't seem so challenging.

When life falls out of your hands....

and you don't know what to do.